The price of acceptance . . .

[Don]

Quote:When does it stop? When does this feeling of non-acceptance, of being on the outside, ever stop?

As long as you are in Fundyland it won't. In Fundyland you can never know when you have done enough, been good enough, prayed enough, and kept all the rules enough to be "in" and accepted. The Thought Police are constantly judging everything you do, weighing your actions, attitudes, and motives and finding them wanting.
Worse yet, you will find you are doing the same to yourself and always find you are coming up short, so you re-double your efforts only to find you don't have the energy to pull it all off. Your best will never be good enough... and the guilt and burden of not being all the way "in" will eat at you like a cancer.
So, no, as long as you are in the Fundie bunker/cult it will never stop.