Glad I'm out!

[Alaskagirl85]

(10-21-2011 06:56 PM)DaisyDeadhead Wrote:  Welcome!

Are you speaking to your parents now and how are they taking all of this? Fascinating!

Thanks for the nice welcome everyone!

My parents and I have actually been on speaking terms through the whole thing. They're happy I'm no longer in a fundamentalist church. They are pretty unhappy that I still believe in God and am still a Republican. They do try to convert me constantly to their way of thinking, but instead of tracts, it's through email forwards from the New York Times Op-Ed section, and lending me books like 'God Is Not Great.' It's a complicated relationship, but they've always been there for me, even when I disappoint them. It's like the Fundie parents who's child goes astray and they ask "where did I go wrong?".. My parents wonder where they went wrong for me to turn out the opposite of them. In their world view, my sister, the PhD Marine Biologist, is more on the right path than me, the stay at home mom/military wife. But I'm learning to just live my life and do what feels right to me, without feeling the need to apologize to people who's expectations I don't live up to. I think one thing that attracted me to fundamentalist Christianity so much was that there were all these specific rules, and maybe if I followed them all, God would like me, and the Pastor would like me, and everyone in the congregation would like me... and then maybe I would like myself.