Ex-IFB pastor bares all

[Bob M]

(03-31-2012 05:17 AM)tiarali Wrote:  And on the flip-side, I was made to feel like I was the substandard christian when I left IFB-dom because I wasn't 'living the life'. I have a fundy friend who is always patronising to me now. She's turned a blind eye to absolute filth, but she sees me as the backslidden, baby christian she needs to help.

The thing I've realised just recently is that I never stopped being a christian, regardless of how it looks to outsiders. All the way through, God and I kept a communication up. I know he's there, working in my life, and I talk to him, even if it's just to tell him that everything's so horrible that it's hard for me to still believe he cares. At times I've been able to tangibly feel him. Fair enough, I was going through a major crisis, so he was most likely letting me be aware of his presence more because I needed it.

But being a christian is far more than living a life and believing a book. It's a cord of relationship that ties you to your saviour. And I'm not sure if that can be broken.

You know God better than I do.